Prada, Gucci, Dolce & Gabbana, mmmmm.... =)
Ok, so I have finally decided to stay, but that means I need to find a room somewhere. And that can be a little bit harder. I can of course stay at Elins and Johns but it feels wrong you know. This week is ok, because Elin is in Sweden but after that I need somewhere to move. And it's hard. I don't want to live to far away because it's not worth it to buy a buscard.
We'll see what happens. I don't want to share a room, that's the problem. You know, I want to have some privacy. But then I probably have to move out of town a little bit. We'll see what I can find. Anyway, I have to go now. I'm going to Portmarnock with Charlie, that's gonna be fun I think.
Ok, so long my dear friends. Have to go...
French, Irish, Irish or Spanish?
I got the job. I'm gonna start my job on thursday if everything goes well on my final interview. Apparently they have a person who interviews all new people at Brown Thomas, and they have to accept me as an employee, otherwise I won't get the job, even if a certain department already have given me the job... Complicated? Yeah, I know.
Anyway, that means that I REALLY have to decide whether I'm gonna stay here or not. Do I want to? I have no idea. It's such a big city, and I want to move to Belfast. I really think I want to move to Belfast. But I have a problem. I will come back to that later, now I will tell you about last night....
We went to a pub called "The Hairy Lemon". Cool pub, no tourists, that was nice. We were drinking and chatting, having fun. I had a text conversation with Manuel and I promised him to show up at the house party later. We went to Temple Bar to say hi to Nina, a swedish girl who's working in a coffe shop. She had already gone home when we arrived so we went to the pub where John and his friend Paul was waiting. I went in, and within 5 minutes I had seen a penis, been told not to tattoo weirdos on my shoulders, that I was worthy dying for and that I was gorgeous...
BIG TRAUMA!!!! Two guys me at the bar stopped me. They looked nice, not creepy or anything. One guy said "Look at this" And I took a look at the other guys very very pale legs. I was shocked because he was just standing in underwear. Then his friend suddenly pulled the other guys thing out!!! CHOCK!! I actually thought I was gonna faint! And then the guy just turned around and made a g-string of his underwear so I could see his even whiter butt! And then I ran! And I will NEVER EVER EVER go in to that bar AGAIN!
We took a taxi to the house party, it was in Drumcondra. Manuel came an met us. The house was totally packed with people. It was quite a big house, but you were standing packed like herrings =) and every second person passing us were smoking a joint...
There were mostly irish people there, and spanish. They were fun. Met a really fun guy called John. Around half three we left though, because Elin and Jonas had to go up at 6...their plane were leaving at 8.30 this morning. She's in Sweden on holiday for a week. I'm gonna miss her.
And today...Woke up at 12. John and Paul left to play pool or something. It was only me and Charlie at home. That's the french guy who's renting their room...He's veeery cute by the way. =) And I asked him if he wanted to take a walk with me, because the sun was actually shining... And we ended up for a 3 and a half hour long walk, with a included lunch at a nice restaurant...We had fun. And there we have the problem....He's very cute. I like him.
And tomorrow we're going to Portmarnock and Malahide together...He haven't been there before so I promised to take him there if it wasn't raining. And then we might go to the cinema. He insisted on paying for our lunch...
Still I'm texting to Austin. I'm really looking forward to see him. He's at some Music Festival in West Meath, with like country music, gospel and things like that. I think. Someone called Ricky Skagg and Blind boys of Alabama...Heard of them? Me neither. He's cute. And I think that Paul should be back in Ireland today or tomorrow. Hmmm, maybe I shouldn't have three dates at the same time. It makes me confused. But hey, I'm a cool girl. It strange. It's like everybody's interested at the same time. It's everyone or none at all. I take all. And I'll sort the problems when they come.
The most importnant thing is that I'm happy. And that I am.
Belfast or Dublin, Austin or Paul?
"But I was supposed to move to Belfast. I have already packed all my things!"
"Yeah, but you CAN'T be serious about that job, are you?" "Well..." "No Erika! You will get into troubles when you finds another job. The money goes straight to your pocket. No insurance, no anything!!" "But I want to move up there..." "My dear Erika, you can move up there as soon as you get a job. Just concentrate on your interview today, ok? And didn't that guy Austin text you? You like him don't ya?" "That's not fair. It could work out anyway. Belfast is not far away..." "Neither is Sweden, and see how the story with you and that 'love of your life guy' ended" "I guess you might be right" "Of course I am, I'm ALWAYS right. Go for the date, the interview and take it as it comes. But plz, don't take the job at the cafe. You can't go from a 2AA Rosette Award Restaurant, to a crappy cafe!" "Ok, I will. But plz, be quiet when I'm out with Austin (and Paul and Manuel) I don't want them to think that I have a split personality or something..."Deal, then"
Ok, I'm a little bit scared myself. I'm almost talking to myself, loud! =) No, not really, but I have been climbing the walls the last few days. I'm restless, just want a job so I can do something during the days. Ok I love my tours around the cities, but I want to work. And I want to make new friends. I want to go for my dates.
I have three dates waiting for me. Tonight is the first one. But I don't know if we're calling it a date. He's taking me to a big houseparty in the city centre, with dj and everything. That's Manuel.
Paul is meeting me in Belfast next week, OR he's driving down here to go for dinner with me. That's cool! =)
I don't know anything about Austin yet, because I haven't answered his text yet. But I look most forward to go out with him. I have a silly smile on my face, and I feel nervous...Who knows?
Do you know the most interesting thing? I was talking to Elin about him last week, after the party. And she said "you don't have a special type of guy, but I don't think that Alex, Goran and Andreas have anything in common. But THIS guy. He's totally NOT YOUR TYPE! You know what I mean" And yes, I do. We're like day and night. But I really enjoyed our evening together. Apparently he did as well... =D
And who knows? But then maybe I should stay in Dublin and give it a chance. I'll give it a date, and after that we'll see. If I get the job at Brown Thomas, I can stay here for a while. I can always move up to Belfast next month. You know, as long as I'm continuing looking for a good job.
The most importnant thing in all of this, is that I haven't felt this good for a long long long time. Actually since last of january. The day I thought my life was ending. I finally got over it. Totally. I've forgiven, I've said I'm sorry, we've talked and everything is out of the world. But it took me almost exactly half a year!
But now I feel free again. As I've said before. "Regret is a waste of time" Have you made a mistake? Just fix it or get over with it!
I won't be crying when I'm lonely... la la la
Ok, I have to prepare now. If I'm "lucky" I might start selling shoes at Brown Thomas next week or something...
My vegetarian diet is ok actually. I've been vegetarian for 8 days now, and I must say that it's weird. Only 5 months, 2 weeks and 4 days =) not that I'm counting :)
Tonight it's party party!
And remember your cute blonde innocent swedish girl...I won't do anything that no other swedish girl wouldn't do...Ok, that doesn't say a lot. You should be scared to death! :)
I've taken a decision!
But now I'm scared to death. I need to find a room, and to start a new account and everything. I need to do everything from the beginning. I think I will ask the cafe if I can start in 10 days, so I can prepare everything first. I need that.
A fun thing...Austin, the glass blower I told u about. The one I met at the party last weekend. He asked for my number...so Elin is gonna give it to her colleague. Her colleague and Austin went to school together. And that's a little sad. If he calls, and then I'm just moving out of the country. But it's only 2 hours away. Strange. Ireland, and including Northern Ireland is so small. The distances aren't that big. I mean, u can drive through in about 6 or 7 hours!
Any way, I have to go now, but I'll be back soon. Have to take a walk or something. Oh, and did I say that I'm a vegetarian now? For 6 months...
Peace, love and whatever...mates
Waitressing in Belfast?
Helluuuuu!
I'm in Belfast now...And I've got a job. If I want it. At a cafe in city centre. But i will only have the lowest possible wage and that is on 5£ and hour. That's not a lot. But the rent is not that high here. And the living cost isn't that high either. So maybe I should take it. For now. And then continue look for another job. The good thing is...they close at 6pm every day, AND they are CLOSED on sundays! The less good thing is that there is no 39 hour per week, he wants the staff to work at least 50. But I mean, that's not a problem for me...I would prefer work that many hours and still be off every sunday and EVERY EVENING! I could actually have a life!
I have 'til tomorrow to decide whether I want it or not. And I can start as soon as next week. Oh, they get tip as well. Between 10 and 15£ per shift. It's not that bad. And if u count that, I would have almost the same wage as at the Osborne.
But I'm nervous. I'm standing before the choice of moving to Belfast. To leave everything I know and move to a new city AND country actually. But Belfast is truly beautiful. I was in the Botanic Garden yesterday...I loved it, and during my search for jobs today, I've been walking through the whole city centre, and seen so many things.
But am I prepared to live here? Their accent is weird =) I have hard time understanding them. Really. But there are almost no foreigners here. Not like in Dublin. Ok, there are, but in Dublin you see more foreigners then Irish working in shops and malls. Not here. Everyone can speak english!
I only wish someone could take this decision for me. You know, it's scary. Now I'm gonna be totally alone! But, what else can I get? I mean, I need a job soon and now I have one. Please, can someone tell me what to do?
Anyway, I'm glad I'm back in Ireland. But I miss u all already. And Kasia, I will make it to Poland very soon! I just need to sort everything out with job and living and then I come, ok? I haven't forgot you, I promise! I miss u a lot. =)
My tan is disappearing. But my ego is back! =) Of course, because I'm the rare swedish beauty here, with the extraordinary eyes...
Love u all!
Back home in Dublin!!
I'm really happy to be back home. I don't have a job yet, of course...but I'm home. The only sad thing...is the weather. =/ It's been raining the last 43 days here, and it's been the rainiest summer in 130 years. Yesterday, people actually had to sleep in their cars on the motorway, because they couldn't go in any direction because of floodings! That's HARD!
I've met this really nice spanish guy, named Manuel, but I can't stop thinking about "Fawlty Towers" (Pang i bygget) just because of his name =D And yesterday I met Austin, an irish glass blower. That's cool!
2morrow I'm going up 2 Belfast and we'll see if I might get a job there. U never know. I hope so. Or in Cork. My spanish is going great, by the way!
I bought the Harry Potter book yesterday and in a few hours I'm going to see the last movie. Alone. No one likes me. Too bad. =) I think I''ll survive...
Anyway, I can't wait to get a job. I just want 2 DO something, u know. How can people actually CHOOSE 2 take wellfare instead of working? I would get nuts!
My english is getting better again, maybe because I spent last night with ONLY irish people. I like that. The party on friday was totally different! There were about 10 swedish girls, 6 italians (3 girls, 3 guys) and a LOT OF brasilians! Oh, and two spanish (one woman, one man) And three irish guys, ALL NAMED JOHN!!!
Whatever, I really need 2 go now. I'll be back in a few days or something. My life isn't that exciting right now =( for once...
C YA!
B4 I met U
Hellu!
Back in SCHWEDEN...dearly beloved beautiful Sweden. "What's wrong with u Erika? I thought u didn't like Sweden?" "Well, I kind of got homesick, and now I don't know if I want 2 leave...I mean, I met this guy 2 days ago..Daniel...real nice guy. Ok, we spoke for like 20 min, but he called me yesterday...And of course I'm leaving the country on thursday. B4 we have the chance 2 meet up..."
Anyway, now I'm gonna tell u little short about our holiday in Spain...Sorry for my new writing skills..To much texting makes u lazy..
Or actually, I'm 2 lazy 2 write about Spain...But we had soooo much fun. Together with a gorgeous bartender who gave us free tequila shots and other drinks and who came partying with us after work...We picked lemons, sang karaoke, THAT WAS SCARY!! and drank a lot of beer!
The biggest news: I now officially drink beer, AND whiskey straight! Cool, huh?
On thursday I'm flying back home to Dublin, I'll start from there. We'll see if I move to Spain now, or later. Might go there for next summer or something... I mean, it's easier to get a job and I have a lot of time to learn spanish. But I keep everything open. Nothing holds me back anywhere...except Paul maybe...
Ok, now I have to continue clearing my room, and wash clothes =(
I'm beautiful, ain't I?? =D
I love u all!!
Erika in Spain
I'm in Spain as you might know...Otherwise, you know it now.. And I'm having sooo much fun here. It's relaxing, but there is to many SWEDISH people! I'm actually getting crazy. It's swedish over here, and swedish over there and I'm just so fucking sick of it!! I mean there IS a reason why I left Sweden, and now they are surrounding me like I don't know what! Ok Erika, just relax, you're on holiday...breathe in, breathe out...
So, I feel a lot better now, thanks =)
The problem is really that I'm the ONLY ONE over 18 here! That's swedish I mean. I love my sister over everything in the world, but SHE IS only 17 and the last few days I've been climbing the walls. But I love you Denice! I just miss my friends, the parties I know I'm missing in Portmarnock and to speak english. I mean, there is NO MEANING AT ALL, to try to speak english here, not even the bartenders know any english. It's totally hopeless, but now I'm learning spanish so It's getting a little bit easier.
WHY are you learning spanish, my dear Erika? Well....I was thinking...I'm quite sick of the climate of Ireland...(poor poor english there, hihi)
DO YOU mean that you're thinking about...? About moving down here, yeah. I mean, why not? I've been in Ireland for 9 months now, I'm homeless, and have no job, so there's not really anything holding me back, is there? Except all my dearly beloved friends that I'm thinking of every day! Thank GOD (or something) that I brought my computer with all the photos I can watch, when I feel alone =)
So Erika, are you serious? I would like to, but it feels like a bigger step to move down to Spain...because I don't speak spanish, I'm a quick learner though, and I would really love to! I mean, think about the weather here, and think about the weather in Ireland. OR in Sweden. But then I need to get a job here as well, and that can be a little bit harder. That's the scary part you know. In Ireland I had Elin, IF anything would have gone wrong, I had her there, but if I go to Spain? No. All alone, in a country where they don't speak or understand english! But it's a cool experience, and then I can go to Australia next fall and feel that I've done something else than just...
Ok, so today I'm not really telling you what we've been up to, but that's because I feel that I need to share my thoughts with you before I come home and give you the chock of your life (almost =) )
My beloved friends, what should I do?
What I CAN tell you, is that I'm still texting this guy Paul, from Belfast... He's really sweet, and we're gonna meet when I get back to Ireland... We text a lot, he's actually the reason why I moved my beautiful being over to this internet café, MILES away =) I need to top up my credit, and then I realised I forgot my phone at home! I can do it tomorrow!
Anyway, have to leave now. Tonight, me and Didi are gonna sing Don't Stop with Queen on karaoke up in the Oasis =) Nice name,huh? I almost feel like home!
And remember that I love you!!!
