Fan ta killar
Why a m I surprised? Remember I told you yesterday that Tore had promised to go out for lunch with me today? And that I said that there was a 99% chance that he would back out of some reason?
Well, I had lunch alone today...
Tores excuse today? He didn't have the energy at the moment, and he needed a shower...we almost had a fight I told him that I really had looked forward to having lunch together with him today. To do SOMETHING. Go down to town and maybe just walk in the sunshine (cause it is sunny today for once)
He said that we could go for dinner then, around 8 instead. And I told him that I will go to bed early to bed today and he knows that, so I wont have time for dinner. I begged him to come with me. No.
I left alone and walked around in town It is nice, but it would have been better with him. And as I forget and forgive very quickly, I decided to bring him home some late lunch/dinner.
I walked home and shouted in the hallway. No answer. I went in to the kitchen. Empty. And I just felt so tired. So disappointed. I looked at the mess, he hadn't even bothered to take out the trash. (Like always)
I called him. He answered. I asked him where he was. He was out to make dinner reservation for him, Björn and Modde. He had left about half an hour after I left. Or even earlier. He probably just waited til I was out of the building before he got ready. And I asked him "so you do have the energy to go out for dinner with them, but not for lunch with me?" "No" was his answer. ??? I told him that I had brought dinner for him and he just said "that was cute of you"
I just felt SOO angry. He promised to call me after they had made reservations and we said goodbye. I have promised myself not to cry over him. But I can't help it. I just felt so angry, so alone.
I had to punch something. I slammed the door, I kicked the wall, and I felt the tears in my eyes. Sometimes I just hate him. I get surprised every time he disappoints me, since I am an optimist.
Question: Can you be lonely in a relationship?
Answer: Seems like it. I AM lonely.
We do not see each other more than a few days a week (even though we live together), and still we never do anything together. He promised that we would do something yesterday since he was going out for dinner with a few colleagues today. Did we do anything? No, because he called in sick because he had a big hangover. He came home at 6 in the morning and was completely wasted.
When I came home one morning after a big party, (I had fallen asleep on the couch) he was so angry that I barely could speak to him. Absolutely not be in the same room as him.
I don't mind him going out to get wasted, to see his friend or whatever, but please, I am his girlfriend and should have just a little priority. At least be on the same level as his friends. But I am soo much lower. Is that how it should be?
Well, I had lunch alone today...
Tores excuse today? He didn't have the energy at the moment, and he needed a shower...we almost had a fight I told him that I really had looked forward to having lunch together with him today. To do SOMETHING. Go down to town and maybe just walk in the sunshine (cause it is sunny today for once)
He said that we could go for dinner then, around 8 instead. And I told him that I will go to bed early to bed today and he knows that, so I wont have time for dinner. I begged him to come with me. No.
I left alone and walked around in town It is nice, but it would have been better with him. And as I forget and forgive very quickly, I decided to bring him home some late lunch/dinner.
I walked home and shouted in the hallway. No answer. I went in to the kitchen. Empty. And I just felt so tired. So disappointed. I looked at the mess, he hadn't even bothered to take out the trash. (Like always)
I called him. He answered. I asked him where he was. He was out to make dinner reservation for him, Björn and Modde. He had left about half an hour after I left. Or even earlier. He probably just waited til I was out of the building before he got ready. And I asked him "so you do have the energy to go out for dinner with them, but not for lunch with me?" "No" was his answer. ??? I told him that I had brought dinner for him and he just said "that was cute of you"
I just felt SOO angry. He promised to call me after they had made reservations and we said goodbye. I have promised myself not to cry over him. But I can't help it. I just felt so angry, so alone.
I had to punch something. I slammed the door, I kicked the wall, and I felt the tears in my eyes. Sometimes I just hate him. I get surprised every time he disappoints me, since I am an optimist.
Question: Can you be lonely in a relationship?
Answer: Seems like it. I AM lonely.
We do not see each other more than a few days a week (even though we live together), and still we never do anything together. He promised that we would do something yesterday since he was going out for dinner with a few colleagues today. Did we do anything? No, because he called in sick because he had a big hangover. He came home at 6 in the morning and was completely wasted.
When I came home one morning after a big party, (I had fallen asleep on the couch) he was so angry that I barely could speak to him. Absolutely not be in the same room as him.
I don't mind him going out to get wasted, to see his friend or whatever, but please, I am his girlfriend and should have just a little priority. At least be on the same level as his friends. But I am soo much lower. Is that how it should be?
Kommentarer
Trackback
